Trying not to beat myself up

My mom treated me and my husband to Applebee's today. And I did very well on ordering lunch. I had the 6 point Paradise Chicken Salad which was divine!! And then, I thought I'd get one of those little shooters for dessert. The Hot Fudge Sundae one I had was 8 points!!!!! I am trying not to beat myself up over it. I mean, I rarely have a treat like that. And I hadn't even dipped into my weeklies yet. I know this is something I'm gonna have to overcome since I know this won't be the last time I make a bad choice. I'm taking a deep breath as I write this :)

May 27, 2010-First Weigh In

Well, I always get nervous before a weigh in. I know that no matter how I do during the week, the scale can be fickle. Well, this time, I had no reason to be nervous. Because when I got on the scale Thursday morning, I weighed 254.4...down

5.8 lbs!!!

which, in turn, gave me my first milestone: a 5lb gold star! I was so excited!!! Still am!!!

The Starting Point

I knew that when I stepped on the scale nearly two weeks ago I would be in for a surprise. Between my dad dying and getting married, I had pretty much let myself go...losing sight of the goal I had when I started Weight Watchers last year. I had lost almost 50 lbs before letting the scale creep back up. So...enter the weigh in that brought me to this day. I weighed 261.2...yea. More than what I weighed when I started WW a year ago. WOW. I cried. I mean, I really cried. I knew that WW had worked for me in the past, so I decided to join the online program. the next morning, I weighed again, since that would be my first real day on WW. I was down a pound (woohoo) already so I put my starting weight as 260.2. Still high, still cringe-inducing. But hey...I'm gonna be real with myself.

This blog will be my way of holding myself accountable. I've done this before, but dammit, this time it is going to work! I have nothing holding me back. So here's to being healthier and thinner in 2010!